Do you know that terrifying feeling that you get before you’re about to do something life-changing?
This happens to me anytime I am making a big decision. You know the feeling, when you’re so excited, yet so scared at the same time. This fear can make you miss out on some major opportunities in your life. All of a sudden this fear takes over and you find questions running through your mind that didn’t exist before like ‘Am I doing this for me?’, ‘Is this what I really want?’, ‘What happens if I fail?’, ‘There’s no way I can succeed!’.
…..the thoughts go on…..
These fear based thoughts reared all of their ugly heads at me this week as time crept closer to choosing my yoga teacher training. As I had said earlier, I had found the one. Then Monday morning came around and I woke up not so sure anymore. Immediately I tried to figure out where these thoughts were coming from; what was the root of this thinking? It dawned on me that the day before at the Wanderlust event Yoga In The City, a thought had crossed my mind that I had never heard before: “What is your purpose?” This was a pretty daunting question and I honestly didn’t know. This one thought must have opened a flood gate because I woke up the next morning completely unsure of myself and who I was.
Instead of being dragged down by these fear based thoughts I decided to change the pace and do as Gabby Bernstein has been teaching me to do when things like this happen which is to face the fear. Acknowledge this fear as not real and return to love. So, I told my boyfriend about my day and how I was feeling to put the spotlight on it. Then I started asking myself some serious questions about what I wanted my purpose to be, what kind of yoga teacher did I want to be, who do I want to be? I then went home, made some almond fudge (recipe below), rolled out my yoga mat and did some seriously sweaty flows. As I laid in savasana I asked what my purpose was. The answer that came gave me a sense of ease and I think it could bring comfort to anyone. This is what I wrote in my journal, word for word:
Your purpose is to love.
Just as you always have.
Love love love.
Don’t let go.
Even if people are scared of it.
Even if people judge it.
Keep loving, it’s the most beautiful thing you can give to the world.
Forget your worry, love is there
I know that this may seem out there, but this message made me realize that there are no mistakes in life. There are no right and wrong decisions because everything happens for a reason. With each action and experience you are learning something whether you are aware of it or not. If you don’t believe me look at a mistake or not so great time in your life. Now, what is something positive that you would not have today if that mistake or not so stellar time in your life didn’t happen? It could be that you gained such as: life experience, knowledge, a relationship, a physical object, anything! The smallest fluctuation could change your entire life. Would you risk all of the good that you have to change something from the past?
Don’t regret anything, look back on your life with love. If you didn’t go through that rough patch in your life you wouldn’t be in that happy place you are today. Are you in that rough patch right now? Guess what. Smooth sailing is ahead. And you will be a far better sailor than you were before.
It’s these simple switches in the mind and of perspective that makes life less stressful and more fun. Being at peace with your past and future can also make you more grateful for the present.
With light and love,
Almond Butter Fudge
What you will need:
1 cup Almond Butter or Peanut Butter
1/4 cup warm coconut oil
*place jar in warm water to liquify
1 + 1/2 tablespoons of Raw Honey
1/2 teaspoon of salt
Optional: Chocolate Chips
What you need to do:
Combine the almond butter, coconut oil, raw honey, and salt in a mixing bowl. Stir until the ingredients are well incorporated. Then add your chocolate chips.
For a container you have two options:
1. a glass casserole dish (the smaller the better)
2. a sandwich sized tupperware container.
I used two sandwich sized tupperware containers. Line the container with plastic wrap then pour in your mixture. Smooth out the mixture with a spoon or spatula and place in the freezer for 1 hour.
After the hour has passed you can remove your fudge from the dish or container by pulling it out by the plastic wrap. Then separate the fudge from the wrap. It’s not sticky because of the coconut oil so it should come right off.
Cut the fudge into squares and enjoy!
If you have leftovers be sure to store them in the freezer.